Be Strong, Believe.

Well this week has been semi-stressful and long... Very long.

Many things have occured and been going on that are way out of anyone's ability to control. Life changes rather quickly and its up to each of us to be strong enough to cope and maintain stability among the winds that shake and ruffle the trees. Last night Gramma Sue died, Allie and Kamilla have been pretty torn up. As a friend, I want to be there are often and as much as i can. Yet, I dont really know what to say, because nothing I say will help to comfort them. Its hard, I wish I could take their pains away... believe me If I could i would. Its just like when my grandpa died, I had to remember that no matter how alone i felt, I always have someone who has been through it all, the Savior. Its times like these that make life and all the struggles worthwhile. Its reassuring. I know that everything is going to be okay. The sun will continue to shine regardless of the pain, so I must do the same.

Graduation practice was today! That is coming up in... wow. Three days. In three days i will walk that stage and be done... with high school and with being a kid. Well i always want to be a kid, But that walk means I am more responsible than ever for how i turn out. Then i leave for BYU about 5 days after I graduate... That is very difficult to bear; leaving Summerville is going to rip a piece of my heart out. We dream and we dream for the moment to come; well right now, Its coming way to fast and the rush is getting to me.

I want to stay strong; through the Lord, anything is possible. Everything is going to be alright.

Two more days:

As I look back, I think wow. These three years have kinda flown by. Life has been hectic and at times a little overwhelming but thank goodness for my family and friends.

The super exciting thing is that i have a family reunion coming up, and that will be, as always, a blast! I cant wait to see all my family before heading off to college. and collecting all those graduation moneys is helping a whole lot. haha. thats a joke but yeahhh. This year is coming to a close, and the next step of my life is so close i can nearly taste it. Im so ready to start on my journey, and I would have to say that the greatest wisdom I have that has carried over from life lessons has been from the gospel. Thank goodness I have that, or else I would be quite lost. In this harsh world, it good and comforting to know that at the end of the day, when all seems to go wrong, there is one whom we can always rely on. and that is the Savior, who is and has always been my rock.

life is going to be a long road. But im fueled and ready to go. :)

Superfly.

Today was actually a ton of fun! We had our senior picnic and other things going on which was a complete blast! I got my yearbook. and haha I can definitely see the difference between this year and last year. Last year I was involved in nearly everything drama and theatrical stuff while keeping up on school work. This year I definitely put all my artistic involvement aside and focused on graduating. Its sad but I guess its totally worth it!

Still the countdown is on, and I cant wait until school is over. Only a couple more days.

Fried. Extra Crispy.

Today was my trip to Kiawah!!!
It was most definitely the best kayaking trip ever incorporated with my nerdy love of ecology and biological studies. We found the best specimens washed up on the beach to study. Also we ran nets through the inslet to get fish and found some pretty rare species for that particular area. The highlight of my day was kayaking with the dolphins and that was amazing. I touched one. They were feeding, and the main female was teaching the younger ones how to strand feed by forcing fish on the beach and then jumping on the shore to get them. It was amazing. Ive never had more fun in the outdoors! I am super sunburnt though. Its all good. i absolutely loved the entire trip. Kayaking is so much fun that when Garrett comes back, we are going to make sure we have the optimum fun possible! Im tired. Going to beddd!

Only 5 more school days left. YAY!
Fave Scripture: John 1:5-9. Yup. The lord is light all right. I think we all need a little more of that cleansing light.

Day to Day.

Today has been nice. i woke up, went to seminary, went to school and got home at 11:30.

School is much better when i only go for three hours. hmm Not much hw. Im just sitting there in every one of my classes.

The only thing that is really getting on my nerves is the problems with my FAFSA. haha. this financial aid and scholarship office at BYU is nerve-wracking to deal with.
Oh well. Its the Lord's will. Everything will be alright. I hope.

So after much worry

Everything is alright.
I finally talked to my father.
He is fine, and apparently I freaked out
over nothing. Life really stinks sometimes.

but I thank the Lord that everything is alright.
thanks to those who comforted me. it means
so much. you have no idea. :)

Happy Mothers Day.

Today is most definitely a day that I cant wait until I get to celebrate for real... lol but while Im waiting... I have to say HAPPY MOTHERS DAY. Not only to my mother who is the best person I have ever known. And has put up with me through thick and thin, even though she is my stepmom. I dont think that matters in the grand scheme of things. I love her with all my heart. Also to my grandma, who puts up with so much from me! haha. She has had her patience tried more than once. It goood she loves me.

Also, even though they arent mothers to me, I would have to say thanks to all the women in my life! lol. I mean there are certain mothers who make my life so much eaiser to deal with. Sister Johnson, I get to see your smiling face every morning. You truly dont know how amazing you are, and you make the best food. :) I have always felt welcome in your home. Thanks. Barbie has truly helped me also! I love both these women like mothers.


hmm. besides Mothers Day... its been study central. I have AP BIo examm tomorrow. I cant wait til that is done and over with.

Well. Im tired. Its been a long weekend. The four of us went to see Iron Man last night, and it was super amazing. I absolutley loved that movie. and I cant wait until this weekend to go see Prince Caspian which happens to be my fave book of the Narnia series. that should be super exciting.

Fave Scripture of the Day: D&C 121. All of it! I may be struggling in my life, but that is when Joseph Smith is able to fully see the mercy of the Lord amidst all his trials.

Excitement and More Excitement

Yesterday was my APUSH exam... and boy was that fun! I seriously think I aced it which is super super nice! And then after that I went to school and took a practice APBIO one... that was not so much. Oh well. I really cant wait until after that exam is over, bc then its smooth sailing until I graduate. I literally go to school for exactly 5 more days... thats it. I have a fieldtrip and a senior picnic that take up a lot of my time. so yay!

But yesterday I went over to the Johnsons and had this amazing Chicken Broccoli and Rice which was mui delicioso. We all hung out over there and watched the Goonies and then Jurassic Park. Which happen to be two of my most favorite movies ever! yay! The whole group was there too so it was a nice hangout. I thoroughly enjoyed myself, which I always do when I'm over there. :)

Today... hmm the agenda is as follows. Maxx and Relaxx. I woke up at 10:30 am. and Really dont plan on doing much being cleaning out my car, which is a DISGRACE. and then were all going to go see Iron Man which makes me more excited bc Ive been dieing to see that movie. I think its going to be Allie, Mckay, Nicholas, and Me... but Im not sure. Fun times.

Then I dont know what else. but mann. Its super exciting that life is kinda flying by and college is getting closer and closer. YAY!

Even more CRAZE!

Welll. Its getting down to the nitty gritty. Only 16 more hours until this huge paper is due... and haha. I am not looking forward to that. Oh also APUSH is tomorrow. That exam will be fun. Both practice exams turned out with me yielding a 5, so hopefully my smarts will pay off. hmm. Im seriously craving some freshly cut pineapple. I dont know why. Buttttt... This weekend could not be coming any slower.

Im trying to take a step back and just analyze everything in my life. So far, I cant find anything to complain about so that helps a lot. Welp. Im going to go be studious and right this paper. But my current state of the union is: Happy.

Fave Scripture of Today: 2nd Nephi 2:13

Rushed. Crazed.

hmm. Well life is a tid bit crazy right now with all the senior year deadlines piling up!
AP Exams are coming fast, haha actually my APUSH is on Friday and APBIO is on Monday.
My Heart of Darkness paper, got erased! So hahaha. I give up even though its also due Friday.
wow. I swear, I have to make the best out of this. or else it shall kill me. So... Today has been like crazy fun I guess. Seminary, as always was great. Schoool was long. and now studying/typing a paper will be longer.

Oh yeah. i also have to go to Lamazze or however you spell it with the ever increasingly large Sarah who is seven months along. little ethan alexander is due in july. Which is good for Sarah. haha.

hmm. I bought my bedding for BYU. and I cant believe it but this Sunday, will be a month until i leave for school which is CRAZY!!!! Im scared senseless but I'm making the most out of my time here. Actually a lot of stuff is going on packed into this last month, it will be a blast.